The Journey Of BlogCrawler ..

Geee.. again another day is kinda free .. started my longest crawl accross blogsss yesterday nite. Same as usual, used Bobby_martian .. and just drop by every single taggie that I passed thru .. erm . only some that I actually never drop any.. Is just coz the flooble telan my post !! Evil flooble .. Grrrr..

Is supprise that I actually able to crawl from someone that I dunno, all the way til someone I noe .. but .. I FAIL TO CRAWL BACK !! *sob sob* Alrite .. let me reveal how I actually crawl from 1 blog to another. The journey of the BlogCrawler aka Bobby_martian/Zioner ..

MeiYii -- CheryLim -- GilaVern (stuck !! turn back) -- CherylLim -- Shengmae - JClivesinChris -- RaChAeL_w (Guess is someone I noe ) -- Daniel_YJH (LOL .. my fren !!) .. all the way till almost everyone that I noe .. but .. cant crawl back to my own site .. eew !! Hmm nvm . The journey will continues till the day I actually able to crawl back ..

Atually I click thru lots of links .. what I posted above is just a way that leads me to someone I noe .. most of the time I actually stuck with blogs that haf no links at all .. hmm so everytime haf to turn back. Actually most of them are kinda abandoned site. Hmm .. some ppl actually blame me for hiding my indentity .. like a stalker. Actually ...bobby_martian or Zioner is one of my nick around the Internet .. =( I never hide my indetity laaa.... *sniff sniff*

A conclusion .. from all those blogs I crawl accross .. 60% of them are actually staying around me (?!) =P dunno when they found out who am I .. will I actually got pancung by all of them .. or maybe some of them can turn up as my neighbour (!!) Hehehehe .. but is actually another way of knowing more ppl by sitting infront of the com .. kinda tired with mIRC .. started cant get to know more ppl from there .. so I decide run across some blog. Hmm .. U might think that is so impossible or so hard to get to know ppl from blog .. but guess wat . EeWen aka e2wen is the 1st fren that I actually noe from blog =) my another crawling results.

Oooh well .. I better get myself to my room .. read some book. Have to save energy for the nite Baguion Concert in RLC. Peace ppls .. dun mind me crawl around .. so .. When u ever see a Bobby_martian or Zioner post in ur blog taggie .. that is me .. Just happen crawl across ur lovely blog to search my way back =).

:: Listening to - Parachute Band: Shepherd ::

Mei Yan is Leaving !! =(

Mei Yan is leaving !! =( .. once I woke up from nap today .. went up to my com .. saw this msg box is blinking .. which is from Mei Yan .. told me that she got the ASEAN scholarship and will be leaving on next thursday .. Is so short notice ! Make her attend this Saturday Church .. if not duno when only I get to see her .. That measn the SS2 CG will less 1 more person .. aaaw.... But at least she got her scholarship that she wanted for so long .. Hmm ..God Bless you Mei Yan !! Do keep in touch even u over there k ..

Today is really a bz day .. went college in the morning, to get some briefing from Mr. Steven, our HND MM new course leader .. The External Verifier is visiting next week and we as student need to fill in those feedback in our assignments .. sad case I need to redo Ms. Alicia's work again .. yes .. it is AGAIN ! .. But Mr. Vincent compliment that the website I done is the most best among all my classmates =D *Bloooated* Hmm ... still remember that I posted this about doin my assignments .. hmm thats the one . .the page actually come out from 8pm -- 11pm .. is just a few hours stuff .. Haha guess I can do better.

Again , Just fin my assignments again .. I've been non stop typing since 8pm till now .. is kinda like a daily routine where else I non stop typing after my dinner, and of coz not to forget that I have to on my wimamp or the Win Media Player to play some songs .. you gotta noe that without songs while doing work is very boring .. *eeew*

Fin browsing thru some other ppl's blog .. from those I noe and those I dunno .. just simply click and click and open in tab .. start reading .. and sometimes I just drop some msg in their taggie .. calling myself as "BlogCrawler" which crawls around and read some stories .. posted in their taggie with the nick of "Zioner" and "Bobby_martian". Some ppl actually will care who are those reading their blog .. most of them turn as supprise and ask who am I .. Hahaha I just named my self as "BlogCrawler" neway. Went thru someone's page, which I can't recall who is that .. (browse too many) There is a event that is happen 3 days ago .. that is 26th April. Was talking bout the incident that happen at the Fatty Crab there, where there is 2 indian man try to snatch the mom's handbag .. hmm ..but turn out as they ran away. Bless the mom. But wondering .. which Fatty Crab ?? Is is the one near Ming Tian ? Scary thou .. reminds me bout my sis that got snatch infront of my house .. *change mouse batt* hmm .. where was I ?? Oh .. yeah the snatch thief .. honestly .. since now the rules had fix .. we are actually permitted to whack them till they injured ... whihc include broken bones and so on .. Hahha I guess I will be evil =P

Oh well ..ciao for now .. need to wake up early for class tmr ..

:: Listening - Parachute Band: You're My Lord ::

Doinkness ...

URRrrgGH ~~!!! Gooodness .. I really feel like screaming, life is just full of stress and so on ! Today was bored enuff, went to college and stuck the head into the stupiak Java Programming, no idea bout how many trillions of my brain sels has been sacrificed in that. Now I just feel like slamming my head against my keyboard .. *looking at keyboard*

It is a boring nite, suppose to do my work.. somehow dun feel like it. Thought I've done my assignments, yet now I still got prob in my assignments that I need to fix.. got to look for lecturer tmr neway. Talking bout tmr, suppose to be rest day for the HND MM .. but blow it .. Steven want to see us and claimed it as a "Urgent Meeting" and "Compulsary for everyone to attend" .. should be something to do with the doink External Verifier that fly all the way from UK to here.. Erm .. Yeah .. the fat lady which is quite ok to us .. Well, dat means.. Me the Class Representetive of the BTEC HND MM 1st Batch is goin to lead the whole class again ... *frowns* Why alwiz haf to be me and me ? I've been holding the Class Representetive post since the day I join my college .. Eek .. doesn't have any one better out there to choose ?

MSN is super duper quiet tonite, other than JuYit and Kenneth who msg me few min ago .. and Janning and Ms Alicia that msg me this evening, other than that, no one else .. Hmm ..sounds dead .. Well no idea bout what happen today. Even my mIRC is still connecting, I guess the server must be down, if not it will be close to impossible that it can't be connect since 1539 this afternoon ..

Well, this Saturday will be a tired day I guess... Baguio Nite Concert in RLC. Dinner starts at 6pm and the concert starts at 7pm.. I really looking forward to this event. I never really join that much of youth stuff for so many times in the pass few years. This Saturday.. guess is the time that youth show that how vibrant we are .. haha It will be a nice day and a happy day. =) Yipeeeeee .. I can be spiritually recharge again !! Haha I hope I will be able to arrive early .. and might join the Praise Team .. Bless my poor fragile knee Oh Lord !!

Hahaha I've created a quiz bout myself in bebo.com, and I publish it to those peeps in my gmail address book. Supprisinly Rachy my Sis actually is the 1st one who took the test.. and I never thought that she actually score a 80% .. You are great gal .. hehe =P at least u as my sis still can score high... Haha Yet she said that I never told her that much of things .. Hmm .. Rachy ar Rachy .. take one day .. U, Cherrie and me .. lets go to Genting and stay there for 4 days ? hahah then we can have lots of stuff to catch up .. *winks* Rite before she left to Russia ..

God Bless the daaay and the following days .. My bday is coming real soon, dun feel excited bout it ..
Peace on Earth peeps ..

:: Listening to - Planet Shakers: All That I Want ::

Happy Birthday Hui Yiiii

Happy Birthday to Hui Yiiiiiiiii .. hahah I baru woke up then now I baru plant myself infront of the com and start typing this .. Actually I duno when is her bday .. kinda forget I spotted it from her OLD ABANDONED blog .. and then today was browsing frenster .. and saw her bday is actually today .. hehe Paiseeeeeeh .. paiseh ..

*Dance around Hui Yiiii* Happy Birthday Sweeet Sixteeen .. =P but I noe you wont read this .. hehehe but nvm neway .. just-in-case .. =P

*Sings in burung gagak voice*
Happy Birthday to U ~
Happy burpday to u ..
Happy burfdaaaaaay to Hui Yiiiiii ..
Happpy Bday to u ~~~~~

Hmm.. know you not that long neway .. but I guess I got the wrong 1st impression on u , which everyone start laughing when I comment that you are kinda shy ? Bleeeeek .. I take dat back =P Coz is actually kinda noisy and not to forget ur trademark type of glaring at ppl *grins*

Oh well .. any cakes around ? =P or should I order a special cake with all cream only =) make it creamy and ready to smash on face .. hehe that will save some money and instead of getting a real cake .. should do that 1 day .. hehehe =P

Oh well .. ciao 1st ... once again .. HAppY BiRthDAaY Hui Yiiiiiiiiiii !! ~ *

Boring nite

Is a boring Saturday nite, just fin off 1 of my work, dun think tmr I will be goin to Sg Wang and give support to Natasha, still got at least 2 more to fin off. Really sorry to Natasha.. u was so hopping I will go, somehow .. tons of works stop me for going. All da best to u.

Run thru some blogs .. And here comes my moodyness and my sadness. I was reading at lots of ppls' blog, is either I noe or i dun even noe them, click here and there.. Dropping msgs in their taggie .. with the name of Draccy, Wombat, Zioner, bobby_martian and etc.. Sudd I just realise everyone's life is just so wonderful and yet interesting. Everyone seems happy and happy all the while, and heck .. what happen to my life? I cant remember or recall back when is the time I actually feel happy, or should I say.. I lost my happiness.

I lost my happiness, I start cheering everyone whenever I able to. I lost something, I want everyone to gain that something that I lost. No one will actually understand my probs and so on.. I start sharing a pair of ears to those who need. Giving out my shoulder to those who need a shoulder to cry on. Listen to every single prob and try to help them, share every single prob the face, the sadness in their life. I dun mind it will affect my emotion or so on, coz it seems no difference. I already sad, add in more sad ,, and the result is still the sad. But the difference, the particular person could live happily.

Woke up in the morning, start all my daily routine, everyday is just the same.. everyday I haf to face the pain that comes from my knee and my back. Guess there will be no chance that I able to be heal till the day I left this world. No one in my family seems to care bout what pain I suffer. I forget, since when I never tell my family bout my health anymore, whenever I fall sick, I tends to not give a damn of it.

My bday is coming soon, next few more weeks then I will be 21 years old.. 21 years old, everyone will be excited bout the day will come.. they will get excited when they turn to 21, and claim it as "Finally". This kinda happiness u wont able to get it from me. From then my bday is giving a chill of it, I can sense something is goin to be so so wrong on dat day itself. I dun feel like celebrating it, the best is, I will never ever remember back my own bday. Whats the point of remembering it? Bday is just a normal ordinary day in my life, makes no difference. No presents and no parties which I will care, I even get use to the way no one greet me, just like last year. Singing bday to myself on dat nite. Sounds pathetic and drama? But I can tell u .. this is the truth. I never try to had any parties on my bday and so on. From the time I grown up, no memories that actually will haf someone celebrate it for me. Presents? If I will get any presents, guess that will make me cry, I will be end up hugging the present when I sleep, even start laughing non stop. Sounds crazy eh? But if u noe my life .. u will think that is a normal reaction. Getting presents from my parents is one of the thing that will never ever happen. I can even get scold on my bday.. imagine it. Receiving a greeting from fren or a card will make me smile for the whole day.. I dun care a greeting thru sms or anything. I haf to face the fact .. who on earth will remember my bday neway.

What I want for my bday? Guess, the present I ever wanted is not able to get from anyone.. Who can make my parents accepted Christ other than God .. who can give me the soul mate I searching for other than God... Is all bout God and God. I just hope that I will get a better life, at least a life that is doesnt contain so many sad moments till I can even forget when is the last time I actually able to feel the happiness and joy.

Looking into the mirror is just like I facing another stranger which I dunno who is he. I tends to fail to understand my ownself. Myself is like a stranger, I will never noe what will happen next. I duno what was he thinking, I dunno what does he want. All I want, is that someone that will care bout me, and will help me to understand myself well. IF there is that someone out there. Which that is my reason to get a gf. What I think, a gf will actually noe more bout me than myself. that is ... If I had one.

Just like what all the test told me bout it. No matter how many test I took from the Tickle.com .. I still remain to be at the small amount of it. Is like around 1000 ppl and there will be only 6 will share the same character with me. Y I alwiz be the rare and unique ? This is just my life ..

Doink !!!!!

Walaaaaaaa !! Early in the morning and yet I still sleeepy .. I havent had a good nite rest last nite, erm ... should I say . this early in the morning, was doin mua work then my brain got stuck due to process too much and end up hang =7 Saw Mei Yiiii online and after that I decide to rest .. then chat with her .. doin my work .. playing with Tickle.com .. basically multitasking like what I alwiz do. Never realise the time draaaag all the way till 4am .. was temaning her till then, after she got offline, I cont back mua work all the way till 5am .. and decide sleep on where I am ------> The Keyboard !! (To be admit .. fall alseep =P)

Got kicked out from bed by my mom .. draaaging me to the kitchen, 3 of us start searching the doink mouse that ran into my house some time back. Banging and flashing the torch light at every dark corner, even under the washing machine ... hmm bless that tiny lil mousy dat make me cannot sleep ... it fleeeee away.


Hmm .. actually I got the choice not to rush, but Natasha, the youngest pet sis and also the 7th pet sis (7 is a wonderful number isnt it =P) ask me go to Sg Wang tmr, she got this rope jumping thingy, no idea what is that neway, but she is a gymnas .. and she won for Selangor b4 .. hmm .. I was thinking should I go, yet she so want me to go and give her support, bleeeh =P I got a manja manja pet sis by now. The most manja sis I had.

*Yaawns* Tireeeeeeeeed la .. sleeeeeepy laaaaaaaaa... yet cant jump back to my bed .. room is hot now.. *Eeeew* Feeel like dragging out my sleeping bag and put it on floor .. then slumber into dreamland. .. but ler .. HOW CAN ??! I stil got wooooork .. *sigh*

Alriteeeeeeey then .. enuff of "warming up" time to start cracking and killing my brain sels for my doinky assignments .. In case I wont see ya for the few days -- *Smile * Good Morning, Good Afternoon, Good Evening and Good Night =)

Assignments again !!

BLess Ms. Alicia, Mr. Vincent, Steven and Seow, who gave us those doink assignments and yet try so hard to let us pass and so on. Till now, I still have Mr. Seow's work and Ms. Alicia's work on hand, and not to forget Pn Rohaini's. I was still wondering should I go for the sign language class this Saturday at Ms.Christine's house which happen so near to my house... But looking at the working load I having now guess I will blow it off. *Shrugs*

While on the way to KLIA, mom asked me bout last time when I drove Esther and Tian An to KLIA.. mom wondering did their parents noe bout I drove them and so on.. Hmm .. Guess what.. Esther's parents are actually noes that I drove her back every friday, yet I drove her to Gombak b4 and so on, I even helped her dad fetch some guest, fetch her mom to Fatty Crab there as well, is obvious that they noe me and kinda trust me? Hehehe .. The thing I proud by myself -- My personality and Character =) Is like some soft of .. dilulus oleh SIRIM .. .=D

Hey .. no kiddin, go ask around who I've actually fetch them back, a minimum count of last year. I've actually drive ppl back to their house bout 1000 times. Hehe that explain y my money got drain so fast *grins* of coz is the petrol, what else? Hahaha even drove Liz to her tuition during the holidays, drove back and forth to Gombak.. here and there.. hehehe is really tired when drive around, but will be happy when those who need transport found a way to travel from one place to another =).

Laaaaaaa !!!! Tmr got Muthu classss.. EEeeYeww ... Java .. =( I better go sleep by now, if not 100% I will fall asleep in his class by tmr .. which I havent tried b4 =P

Ciao for now, =P I love you whoever it is .. esp to the one I like .. =) Calling From Mars .. Peace On Earth

Wah .. sien ..

*Puts piece of chocolate in mouth* Mmm .. very bored, that is the reason I am here to get something to type, nothing special happen today .. really nothing special, kinda bored neway. Other than drop some stuff to Mei Yiiiiiiiii and went to Cherrie's with my guitar, and looking at the Hercules jump on me all the time ..hehe...

Is bout 11.48 now.. dun feel like jumping to bed, is kinda too early for me, I noe I have class tmr, which I predict it will be a long and boring class *urgh* Hmm .. is dat mean i shall go bed early tonite ?? *pause and think for 1 sec* I guess I will stay, hoping that someone will actually online .. =D. I miss her .. sms few times, yet I still hopping can get to chat more =). A single msg from her will just simply light up my day. Bleeeh .. hehee

Hmm .. I forget to call Joey .. erm .. a primary classmate, lost contact since 1996, I wonder she will still remember me or not, according to Mui mei .. she still that sweet looking and polite gal, hmm .. somehow, if I call her .. dat means is my 1st time trying to contact back my primary schoolmates.. hehe =P Paiseh la .. is like for a million years only I want to contact back them .. bad of me. I shall try to call her one day .. one day, duno which day =P

*Yawns* laa ... goin to be 12 midnite soon, guess she wont be coming online, I just jump to bed .. hehehhe.. Just post for fun nia =P

This is just my life.

Honestly, I've gone thru lots of sad moments if compares to the happy moments, is like around 2 days i will haf 1 sad time? Hehehe I kinda glad that I havent sad till the time I go free falling from KLCC or KL Tower. =P I might do it one day.. who noes?

A list of some thing bad and good happen in my life :
-1992 : Fell backwards, cause impact at brain.
-1994 : Dad admit to hospital this year, my nitemare year
-1996 : Dun feel like mention, but is a sad
-1997 : Injured right feet during football practice
-1999 : Life turning point =D
-2000 : Injured hamstring and Knee. Food poisoning in Dare to Die camp.(M not one of them )
-2002 : Admitted to SJMC due to knee injured
-2003 : Disable 2 days and sat on wheelchair due to knee injured
-2004 : Back injured due to fell from broken chair.

Hehe looks like I got injured year by year and now the only prob is my knee !! But .. sorry to say that I wont be goin to any operation till my mom agree. Tried talk to her and she noes bout what I haf on my knee, she was there when I was in UH. yet she seems like dun care bout it, coz I still able to stand on my feet and walk. But the truth is, my knee prob is getting serious year by year, day by day.

Actually, I am not a weak person, or a person who seldom goes for sports and so on. The fact is, I love sports alot and I cant bear with the truth that I no longer able to run and jump around. I can't imagine what will i goin to do when I not able to stand on my own legs anymore. I probably just suicide..

Sometimes I really duno why my life is kinda miserable, is like sad and sad and sad and sad all the time. Growing up in this kinda situation makes me good in hiding my feelings most of the time. I wont simply tell ppl when I am sad or not, even when ppl ask, I will just say Im cool, Im ok and so on. No idea y ..

Bleeh .. sad sad life .. sad sad moments .. Wish my life could be better.

Hmm .. moody ?

Back to church once again, thought that I was late, end up kinda early and Hazel asked me want to be in the Praise Team for the day, agree for that, went up to the side of the stage, a new experienced for 1st time. Worshipping and jump ALOT on the stage, good thing is I get used to spot lights that shines on me, not that bad neway, just never thought that the heat is so strong. Felt that I am melting on stage.

Heard from what Ps. Joshua says today.. I felt more terrible, felt more terrible that what I have done pass few days .. or maybe a week ago. Think back and i felt more and more sad bout the decision that I've made. I wish I can turn back the time. Guess by now I got a good reason to say sorry ..

To the person .. U noe who are u .. I am really sorry, esp what Ps. Joshua said today .. makes me felt more terrible, I feel like crying, but can I, or should I? I got no idea how to cheer up again, at least I run out of idea to cheering myself up like usual. Think of happy things like what Wei Pyng said ? Hmm .. if there is something I can be happy bout it. So I just apologize .. u told me b4 stop sorrying, but in my the deepest of my heart, I really feel extremely terrible, there is no word that able to express the feeling of mine.

Moody and drove all the way back, drop by somewhere near my house and get a burger for dinner, end up know a gal name Fiza, hmm .. sounds weird, buying a burger can get to know a person. But is not able to cheer me up by knowing someone new. I guess, I still the moody person that I am.

Something missing .. and that is y i sad ?

After some thinking which spend the whole nite, i guess i noe y am i sad .. Is useless neway .. Coz I guess I am missing something in my life .. but I duno wat do i miss. Crap is isnt it ? =7

Oh well... was kinda excited before Friday, coz got CG .. but end up i went there with a sad mood, I think I hide my emotion in a good way, I guess no one able to sense it .. coz I still able to laugh around and so on. Hiding my mood is one of the thing thatI alwiz use to do so. I dun want my mood affect the others as well, just like yesterday that CG .. never noe is Lydia's birthday is coming soon.. hmm. Actually, my 1st time to noe that her name. The CG starts half and hour late and end early, due to we guys are kinda quiet ? no idea bout that. Not discussing bout last week notes, coz I guess they "ter"hand in those, so we discuss bout the notes that 2 weeks ago, bout the BEST way to listen to God.

Chat around, laugh around, and the bday cake .. bday song and so on .. just try to scare Lydia by dashed fwd and pushed her head to the cake, while she attempt to take out the candles with her mouth (some sort of coll joke). After the cakes, sat around the table, enjoying the Pringles that i bought. Chat around, with my eyes looking at the Neopets, which I never realise there is so much cheat for everything in that... That explains how ppl get so many rare items and not to forget those mysterious jelly become so cheap and some of them are too rare to get.

Lydia become the latest that can't believe at my age, I guess I really childish, time to grow up I suppose. *Sigh* Do u noe how hurt is it when u can't mix with someone at your own age, and go around mix with those who are younger than u?? Growing up is one of the things I hate, I couldnt accept the fact that my bday is that soon and I will be turning to 21. Y ?! I can't even get to mix around with those older than me and so on, I really got no idea why is this happen to me. Looking at my college mates, go around, woo those gals, snooker, clubbing, karaoke, smoking watch porn .. Looking at those ppl that I went to the party last time, played dare devil up to daring ppl kiss ? Man .. this at least i still can accept, wearing underwear on ur head and dance around ?! Drinking vodka from a guy's belly... This is what I kenot accept at all .. NOT AT ALL!! This is just my life, a sad, lonely and extreme pathetic life of mine. What else I can do .. what else I can do ??? Anyone ..tell me ..

Be a grown up, what should I actually do?? I will never able to mix in those groups .. i got no idea what actually gone wrong.. I grew up in a very diff family, which parents control alot. I hardly go out, till i got left out. This is just my life ..

Like that someone, and end up I go mess up the whole thing .. Wonder, anything can go more bad than this ? *sigh*

Sad and moody again ..

ARgh !!! Moody for no reason and totally got no idea since when i start getting moody and so on. Nothing really goin bad today, but is the matter i just feel sad ? Hmm .. Is today fullmoon ? erm .. nope .. Blaaaaah .. no idea.. dun care.. dun care .. dun care *shokes head like mad*

Thunderstorm today, the lightning is so scary till i haf to off my com for the 1st after more than 6000 hours of leaving it on without turning the power off .. that means my modem get to off after so long. Hmmm i guess it rains ice again, if not mistaken .. coz is so noisy like something whacking on the roof. I've learned something .. Dont touch any tap water while thunderstorm .. if not u will get electric shock like what happen to me today .. Ish .. wash a hand also kena electric shock .. due to the thunderstorm sudd happen dat time.

ARgh .. wanna listen to songs.. and seems like some of my mp3 file is corrupted .. hmm .. today seems like not my day again, neway .. is a cooling day, guess thats the reason that few ppl come online. Talking bout online .. Everyone pls Notice.. DO NOT open a link that send from ur fren .. thru msn says is u .. is a new virus that been spread. (wonder y so many ppl kena).

Alrite .. ciao for now.. my line is kinda bad again .. sigh ..

::Listening - Planet Shakers: Running After You ::

Bruises all over me ..

Crappy Blogspot actually telan my long post =( ... is getting late by now, so i decide just post a fast wan. Neway .. let talk bout today. Went out in the morning to Cherrie's and fetch Rachy from her coll. Went to Pyramid like what we did last week, another kerazee bro and sistaaahz outting.

Reach kinda early at there, then we decide to talk a walk 1st, walk to cinema, and we stood there and start wondering shall we watch movie.. somehow .. this is wat hapen.

-Wondering wat show to wactch (11.05am)
-Decide watch Ms Congeniality 2, which starts at 11am (11.10am)
-Get tix and ran to the entrace (11.12am)
- Jump in the seat and enjoy the(11.13am)

Not a bad show neway, but the kewlest thing is we actually own the whole cinema, include 3 of us, is like around 5-6 ppl in there.. haha pretty cool and actually is so empty and we can hear our laugh. I wonder what will happen if we watch Samara at that kind of room, probably Rachy and Cherrie will scream till the whole cinema can listen *grins*

After our lunch and siaoness in Kim Gary, abit shopping and we got passes to the Ice skating rink.1st time for Cherrie and Rachy the ice skating lover is so hyper and cant wait to get in the place. Not my 1st time, but i having difficulties at the starting .. a total of 6 falls, which one of the falls .. makes me sit on the icy cold floor .. and waited for help.. erm .. i just damage my right knee again and need ppl to carry me back. They spray some sort of icy stuff on my knee, which is so cold, that my injured knee is numb. Rest for couple of mins .. i get back to the rink, once i step into the place.. *swiish ..* the next thing i realise is .. i lying on the icy floor again, fell backwards and is so so so paiseh .. argh ! I duno how many pair of eyes looking at me having this kind of "stylo-milo" fall. Got teased from boht sis, bout a malay gal which i helped earlier ago, and they took pic of me while helping her.. ish .... Somehow =P dun tell me bout anyone .. hehe coz i got someone else is special in my mind =) I mean .. the person in my mind is so special till i wont forget bout her, and non stop missing her .. erm .. *looks around* i dun haf a gf yet ..

Took a couple of pics .. and =D finally i got my Jr a pic of its own .. hehehe kewliee !! Alrite .. ciaoz for now .. getting late .. is bout 2am .. class at 9am tmr . .sigh.

Calling From Mars to this Maroon color Earth .. Peaaaace.. *Do the ET style by pointing out finger* =P

Confession and Apologize

Make a stupid decision early morning today, regret on what i had done again. Just wish that i never do so. Cried when i jump back to my bed, very upset to what i done. This is like what happen back to 2001. Is just the question and the situation is abit diff.

Somehow.. take me a whole nite to decide that .. Like i said ..a 30% chances .. but what is in my heart is less than that. Coz i noe, that u havent ready for another relationship.. chances for me is seriously very very low. Yet .. that prove that my sense still kinda good. Neway .. i try to prove myself is wrong .. so i take that move.

Like what i can sure, this is love at 1st sight. Coz i feel nothing when i 1st see u. After a long chat that nite .. i just felt that kinda nice having u around, u noe .. when i can feel dat care and attention that i hardly get .. and .. argh .. i cant get it in words .. u noe, when comes to a feeling .. is so hard to get it right by words. I hope i can touch ur heart and .. i can make u feel the love. U might dun feel it from me, coz what i alwiz do .. is bout inner side which not so obvious.. keep all the rumours away .. which i prefer to do so .. keep in low profile ? sigh ..

Neway .. i regret on what i had done .. Here to say .. I really sorry. Truly sorry.. for asking that kinda of question. I feel very terrible .. whenever i asked .. and i will feel terrible on my decision .. i guess.. is coz i got rejected and i scare that will ruin the whole frenship ? I hope .. this wont .. i cant afford of any of those happen again ..

Love love love ... =P

Love love .. love is in the air again .. love is around me again .. =P Dun mind me go kerazee by now. Glad to hear that another of my pet sis got couple .. hehe bless her had a wonderful life =). Last time, they single and I couple .. now i looking at them, one by one get their bf .. hehe *jealous* =P. Wonder when is my turn.. hehe.

To be honest, sometimes i really afraid of this kinda love love thingy, when i got attracted to someone .. and when the moment i start missing that particular person will drive me crazy. Thinking bout the person day and nite and even in dreams, the next thing is, i need to control myself for not sms non stop. I really scare i will irritate her. So most of the time, after few sms for a day and i will stop doin that.

Confession is something that is hard for me to do so. The nitemares haunts me forever. Whenever i got that comes into mind, the nitemares followed by. From best friends to stranger kind is something that i dun want to be happen. Not till i can afford to lost a fren. Not a million years and i noe i wont able to afford to lost a fren again.

She is definitely different character with my ex i haf to say, which i sure is not a rebound or something else. Of coz i sure that i will happy to be with her .. erm ..that is if we get together one day. But anyway... i forget what i wanted to say =P. Neway .. should i ask her or not .. hehehe .. i scared i jump into the relationship too fast .. but i guess i noe her quite well .. i guess.. but i might wrong neway.. =7. Both of us kinda haf a phobia after broke off .. hmm .. =) Nvm .. I really hope i can be with her .. and i noe i am a loyal person .. (dey ! stop praising urself la!!)

Oh well .. kinda late .. better snooze off .. not really feeling well .. my nose runnning like giler .. To the gal i like .. I really like you, i wont say i love you till i got couple with u, coz that word "i love you" more to like .. couple couple's word =P that is what i think .. hehe. Neway .. i never tell u that i like u b4 .. hehehe
Ciao for now ..

:: Listening: Beatles - Yellow Submarine::

Both knee injured !!!

Haha I injured both my knee for the 1st time !! *Wooooooot* I dunno since when i got my left knee injured ..so .. hehe and .. bout my right knee .. I took a terrible fall yesterday which actually damage my right knee to the max .. I still can laugh when i think back how i actually fall .. =D

Note : the damage on my knee is not due to bball in the morning =) *smiles gently at Mei yiiiiiiiiiii*

Oh well .. i slept around 2.30 in the morning, cold wind non stop entering my room .. and makes me so comfy and refuse the call of my bed =7 But actually i suppose go bball at Tropicana at 8am .. i set my alarm at 7.30 .. and end up the fella go so quiet and till i got woke up by SMS from Mei yii .. then i realise how late is it . =P that explains y i am late this morning .. hehehe *ooops*

Went there, and only saw Mei yii was shooting at there... and got a supprised when Hui yii sudd talk .. =P i thought who was that .. hahaha never realise . coz she was wearing white .. and sitting at the side on the erm .. so called court .. which is kinda blind spot for my place. Hehe 3 of us only .. and we just shooting and shooting .. is very hard to play with my injured palm.. Just dunk it 3-4 balls .. Compare to both best player of the day .. Hui Yii and Mei Yii .. which both of them really dunk in alot of it.. aiya .. paiseh me .. But is funny when both the sisters decide to come out a special skill .. throwing backwards.. =P but none of them got any in neway. Hui yii got the ball touched the net, and she tought it went it, but somehow .. =P Mei Yii told her that it actually never went in, and she start laughing non stop.. left Hui yii giving her a funny look ... =P

After few more shooting .. and we go makan .. thanks for belanjaaaaa me !!So paiseh la .. i so old adi =P stil neeed u all belanja .. fellowship on the table and chewing our breakfast .. hehe. Not to forget bout that Mei Yii was so into try to get the 'cincau' up .. =P Laughing over the tables is one of the fun thing to do in the morning .. guess we are the most noisy wan =D

Went back.. very tired... so i decide a nap, b4 i fall sleeep in church. Which i glad i dint coz Dr. Brandon Roach gave a very goood speech which the altar call is super long. I be catcher this time .. and i hurt my knee again when i was catching a person. SOooooooooo bad of Mei yii asked me whether me sure to be catcher for Kee wai =( . Hehhe but i abit questioning myself bout that, althought i can tahan at least 55kg stuff.. =P but not sure with my injured left and right knee ..

Geeeez ... super tired .. ehehe guess i gonna curl up in bed with my pajamas early tonite .. =D Maybe after MU match ..

One of the pic we took, =P kerazee bro and sistaahzzz ..

Benjamin_ET

Happy Birthday Cherrie !!

Yay !! 1st of all .. wanna wish a Happy birthday to Cherrie, my dear sis .. hehe i noe is on 8th .. but i decide to post it here by now =D kinda combined post for wat happen today. Hehhe wish u haf a blessed Birthday =).

Rachy, Cherrie and me went to Pyramid today, the plan is celebrate Cherrie's bday. But is kinda like outting, dun really like celebrating a bday or something like dat. Oh well .. nvm. We reach Pyramid at around 12.35pm .. not very pack time, so we go get our movie tix. Hitch that starts at 1.25pm .. at least and hour to go. Thanks to the VIP card i can get 2 tix for free .. and i just pay another RM 7 for the tix. Rachy making noise that she can feel the liquid running ..so .. she haf to rush to the ..erm .. hehe u noe. =P

We decide to take the challenge to fin off 4 persons meal in Pizza Hut. So end up we have 2 pans of regular pizza, 4 bowls of soup, 1 jaf of pepsi and 4 bread.. duno wat bread is that neway. We was like happily eating and eating..chatting laughing all over.. and sudd cherrie ask me bout what time is the show starts .. look at my watch and realise .. is 1.15 .. and we just bout manage to fin 30% of the food ? In the next min, we start stuff some food in our stomach, and get the pizza guy to pack the left over 6 pieces of pizza in the paper bag, sorry that we cant fin the pepsi, and no way to take away .. so .. left in on table .. and we slow jog to the cinema.. but thank God that the show is just about to start. So we miss nothing =D ooh .. btw .. guess where we hide our food ? right into Cherrie's bag =P

Is a good show which i can say .. u can learn something from the show - Hitch. Just be urself and dun pretend to be someone that u are not. Follow the flow and you will noe what to do. Heheh there is no basic rules of getting a gal or watsoever .. hehe =P as a conclusion . go watch la .. is worth it k ..

Drove to Cherrie's house and we sit in the garden take some pics .. and play with 3 dawgies -- Fifi, Hercules ,and Angie. Took some pic with them toooo .. hehhehe, Rachy seems afraid of Hercules at 1st, but in the end, she get use to it =D. While we about to eat . the rain started pouring down, so haf to moved inside the porch .. and the 2 lil dawgies, Fifi and hercules seems hyper with the pizza we eating .. Hehe so we keep on give them some to eat. Bless the dawgies ... hehe having tea time.

Oh well .. wonderful day and tired day, which need to drove back in the heavy rain ..hahaha cold weather and make me sleepy .. Again .. HAppy Birthday Cherrie =)

Dance ?? hmm .. hehe not bad =D

Yesterday was chatting and chatting all the way from 9.13pm till 2.30am like dat, and the chatting is not those slow reply, but is kinda fast reply for both side ..hehe and someway in our topicsss, there is a part when we actually talk bout dances and sign language.Hhehe talking bout that .. it reminds me bout AFC and all da dances.

Joined in AFC camp since 2001, and get use to lots of dance, but ..erm .. *scratch head* dun think i able to remember 50% of them..basically, i guess i still noe Shackles, which is not allowed in RLC *frowns*, the Celebrating Jesus, one of my fav song.. and what else ? haha i cant really recall back. Maybe i still remember the .. A King Is Born. Maybe .. =P cant blame me neway . is so so so long ago.. Even those sign language song i only manage to recall back Love in Any Language and .. maybe the Think about his love, We are the Reason and some other else..Somehow Liz should able to remember a lil part of it, which they never learn the whole.

*Paused* Ruey Wen addict to Roti Salad =P .. hehe okei okie back to topic .

Neway, dances is kewl u noe that ? I really love dancing and acting. =P Overall.. I am a very active person, bored just kills me immediately.. .hehe whenever i become alone, free and so on .. there goes my thinking fly here and there .. and there goes my mood .. down and down and extreme down. =P that is one thing bad bout me.. even my self-esteem is also a gone case thing, due to never think positive bout myself.

Yesterday the chat was long, and yet .. i confesed bout something.. something is bad, and i dun think i wanna talk bout it anymore, what past is past rite? Neway, i regret to do that .. Yet .. i duno by telling that, will actually spoiled my image totally ? I might .. but .. nvm .. at least i told someone and it makes me feeel better. Honestly .. those stuff giving me a chill .. will never make the same doink mistake again, not in a million years. *smiles*

Guess what i listening ? Hehe is my fav band --- Beatles. With the song Ob La Di Ob La Da.. dun think there is any meaning. But is a cute song .. try it =D. I mean try Beatles Song .. is old .. yet they are good. *winks*

New Taggie

Haha due to the Flooble too many probs, so i decide to make a change =) Now I using myshoutbox taggie .. looks nice =D at least Mei yiiiiiiiiiii recomended to me .. so i hope the new taggie can get along in my blog ~

Non stop editing to get it right by now.. getting satisfied .

Cheeeeeeeers ... hehheehehehahaha

NSW Planet Shakers .. U missed it ?? awww..

The NSW Planet Shakers is here once again, this time is at New Life Center .. =P or something like dat, cant get the name correct neway. Oh well, let start telling bout what happen just now =D.

Went out my house at around 6.40, with heavy rain start pouring down, is start raining since the whole entire day, cooling weather.. not bad. But it was bad for me, coz i need to pick up Jolene from 1u. Well .. i was wet while getting umbrella to take her to my car, which was without driver at the roadside, with engine and everything on .. =P.

Got to the place easily, without the maps and so on. Credit goes to Mei Yiiiiiiiiiiiii which actually told me how to get there. Somehow i cant get the direction at all .. but she mention bout "O'connor" which i thought she was saying "old corner".. the "Medan selera" which all the while i thought is a place to buang sampah.. the round about turn left .. and the key word --"Near our church" and those are seriously make me find my way easily .. Thanks Alooooot !!

Was there a lil lil bit late =P at least we still manage to get the Reflector song, which as a intro. Fully pack hall with everyone having a glowing stick and start jumping and shaking the whole place. It was cold outside, but i guess it was hot inside, with all jumping exercise =D. Starting up with Reflector, followed by Running After You and One way as a fast song.. then til worship and .. Do u think that is end of the songs and so on ?If u been to any of their concert, u should noe when is the peak .. yeah =D right after the worship. What else we have ? The "Give me a J ! u got ur J, u got ur J" .. then "Malaysia, Malaysia is on fire .." and so on .. =) it was fun when u noe what they goin to do .. u got the bit, and u start jumping for it. =P imagine a lil bit .. hehehe how can u missed such a fun ?? Is so so so fun u noe ?? *grins at mei yiiiiiiii*

The words that Ps Ben Woods is seriously make a big huge impact to everyone, about the Satan questioning Jesus that part is funny =). Hehehe but the most important thing is .. alot of ppl safe !! Amen for that !!

The closing, we have One way and Runing after you as ending, somehow.. "We want more" and we make it as a real peak for the nite, with the song Come to Praise. Was jumping at our own place, and sudd a human form train start running .. getting longer and longer and we actually running + jumping around the hall .. kewl eh ? I got my leg stuck in somewhere, and felt .. end up .. someone pulled me up hard which damage my left knee once again. But the peak is kewl .. we are sweating, the rain is still on, but no one felt the cool air. Bouncing up and down is more than enuff to warm ourself neway .. ..

Gastric strike on me, due to never eaten any stuff for whole day .. drop Tian an back, and we head towards Murni to supper ~! yay !! hehe I am kerazee with mango special .. i ordered 1 Roti Hawaiian and 1 Roti Salad... with a big Mango Special (which i already had it on friday after CG). 5 of us sharing it. Jolene seems keep on want to eat those Jelly thingy inside .. and we are the most noisy table for that time .. haha those gals are kerazee.. =P that is mean Ruey, Ee Ling, and Jolene... Joanne seems quiet neway. =D

Nights of Fire .. How can u missed all the fun ?? =P the Praise and Worship, ppl jumping up and down, everyone sweat, ppl getting safe .. aah .... Wonderful nite .. Planet Shakers of NSW is here .. we sang ,we dance around .. we shake the whole place, but the most important thing is .. ppl getting safe =D. Haha make sure u dun miss the fun when they are here for the next time. =) Honestly .. u wont want to miss it.

ps: bout previous PS concert, refer to 4th December 2004 post ..

My past

During the CG, sudd.. i just come out about my pass is miserable .. well. Now i flash back is really miserable. I really dunno how i survive till now. Honestly like what i said, u wont want to noe actually. But .. i guess there might be ppl that wanted to noe . so .. i just tell my past again.

I wont deny that I actually a good student and kinda top student when i was in Std 1 back to year 1991 in SRJK (c) Chen Moh. Was all the while ok ok .. till Std 4. I got into one of the best class in the school, which actually only 2 of it. I was happy, and my life changed. No sports is really killing me for the whole year, the teacher slap me infront of the class on my 1st day -- Reason is sweating. Make sense ? Teacher called up my mom for i never bring my book. Teacher called up my parents for i forget to do my hw for once. That is not the worst .. 1994 is my nitemare year which i still can clearly remember. Teacher throw my stuff from 2nd floor till ground.. u noe how hurting is that? I even get send to the headmaster office for not finishing my work .. which i actually start getting tired of the class. Every morning .. woke up.. i will just let out a long sigh. Goin to school in the morning is like walking on the green mile. The dismiss school bell is alwiz lighten me up, end of another nitemare. Somehow, i purposely fail .. and get kick out from that class .. at least i can go back to sports.

Parents was angry bout i got kicked out, so .. i show them what can i do, in every single subjects, i improved my marks by at least 20 than the previous exam. My dad promise me will get what i want, if i got the 1st in class. I got it neway.. but my parents claim it as "Luck" My feeling is like .. get thrown down from at least 100 feet above sealevel. Neway .. the faking signature really make my dad angry and reported to police. Cruel eh ? But i think .. it might be good for me.. maybe he just take it too serious.

As i said, i was against on Christianity, and yes i do cursed Christian, i do insulted Christian ... I was born in the enviroment which they told me bout Christianity is evil and more to satanic. No offence, cause I am a Christian by now. Running away from Cf during F1 .. and back to Cf during F3 on some personal purpose. ANd that leads me to christ .. the year that change my life again --29/12/1999. Accepted Christ.

There is alot of turning in my life.. is just like a roller coaster, up down, left right. Good or bad, i wont noe when i choose the road.. i will only noe, when there is no turning back. I wont post all bout my past neway .. wat pass is pass, what done is done.. keep on looking back wil slow down ur improvement. Keep on looking back will might give u a big fall. Is a very miserable sad life i haved last time.. tears and blood and broken heart is all left behind by now. Start moving, opening a new page of my life.. Coz i born again. I shall forget all the sad stuff ... i shall be think of happy things by now .. at least start now ..

CG is Fun =D

Hey hey hey ! ! hehhe yesterday was fun yet is tired. Is my 1st Officially CG =D. My 1st time weeei .. hehehhe the previous is the CG Christmas Party at USJ, which is Liz punya group .. but that is just plain party neway .. so .. Until today, Mei Yii's CG is my 1st officially CG !! Yay !!

Arrive at her house at around 8.40 like dat .. stupiak traffic jam and . not sure which is her house, no road sign .. and hard to see house number ..ish !! =D next time i shall spray her house with a big "15" on the wall =D that will be make things more easy =) i dun think anyone will able to miss her house with a big "15" spray mark. =P *looks around .. dun think she will read this .. so safe =D*

I haf to admit that i thought her CG will be dead bored .. coz i heard someone mention bout the SS2 CG is quite dead .. and .. the CG that in my mind is like, everyone sit down, open the bible, and do some bible study, pray .. then end. But after yesterday.. =7 i guess is totally wrong . haha at least is fun, just i feel abit kekok due to new place, which i erm .. shy against too many gals in 1 time .. crap .. i stil haf that prob till today. Hehe at least they never actually do that Finding Nemo style ceremony on new comer .. like Hazel or someone else suggest .. ekk !!I probably run away. =P

Chit chat after the whole thing, got myself a bowl of tasty and yummy bali from Hui Yii, =D. hehehe i miss bali or balee ... hehe watever . as long ppl noe wat i mean then. Then after the kinda long chit chat session with some fooood .. haha i name it as fellowship. Kee Wai and me went to Murni to haf supper.. =) Roti Hawaiian is nice ! hehe i got my mango special .. end up hard to finish it .. coz bloated .. *burps* =P

Hhehe waiting for the coming Cg .. which is 2 weeks away =D.